Written By: Lauren Pearson
Preface: The season of university applications brings emotions of all sorts. Keep reading this blog post to become in the mindset of an individual who has applied during the 2021-2022 application cycle.
Also to note: I will be using college and university interchangeably, yes in Canada they are different... but since I primarily applied to US schools in this context they will mean the same thing.
College Application Season is stressful, to say the least, with the pressing deadlines ahead of the already demanding academic rigour. The set ideology associated with pre-planning your career all before the age of 18 is intense.
I am glad to say that I had a unique experience through applying as an international student from Canada to various U.S institutions.
When applying as an international student, I had the extra effect of anxiety through having doubts about completing the smallest of tasks. The irregularities among my goals and the pre-existing ones that society has already conformed to represent the most single-handedly distributing discovery of all… the lack of awareness.
As I watch the clock turn, I slowly relive the anxiety-provoking thoughts which align with my designated academic goals. The pre-existing future that I have set out in front of me starts to prevail as the last of my applications are handed in.
But to what extent does this eternal dread damage my ever so depreciating self-esteem.
To summarize for context, I am highly stressed about my university applications.
Will, I even get in anywhere? Is there a point for all of this?
To what level of stress is the so-called “normal” amount that I must reach before I hit an ultimatum of physical mental collapse.
Is it worth anxiously waiting around for my… dare I say “dreams” to come true
I originally wrote the above portion during the beginning of January when I was in the thick of the college application process with imposter syndrome and all.
Reflecting on then, now in February, I have had 3 interviews for all ivy league institutions. While this doesn't have a huge deciding factor within my admission decisions, I am beyond grateful and proud of my efforts thus far. Now I await the results in the upcoming months, I hope for the best but I also understand the stark reality of the statistics.
Whatever happens, at least I know that I tried and I'm proud of myself for that.
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Lauren
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